Getting Good-and-Lost - The Chariot Tarot Card
"The obstacle course of achievement under capitalism isn't built to teach pathfinding, it's built to teach compliance with a present path." Chapter on The Chariot in "Tarot for Change," by Jessica Dore.
That has been the source of suffering for so many of us who are "forced" to follow what society considers a "solid" career path.
“Solid” is often code for “lucrative.” In the current volatility, though, that might not be so solid. And/or, it might not satisfy our need for purpose.
However, once it might have. But we change. The world changes.
Our field of expertise changes. Compensation changes.
When caught in that crisis there is no "permission" in capitalism
to get lost in possibility. There is no “license” assigned to Try This/Try That.
Instead the message is to glue yourself fast to what else is, yes,
"solid." No, don’t get cute contemplating the unique kind of
fit for both paying the bills and having purpose-directed workmanship.
Those who come for a Tarot reading when in that agony frequently wind up
pulling The Chariot Card. The image on that card is the person traveling in the
vehicle who essentially is gliding. There is no tight hold on anything. Rather
there is a trust that there will be a heading in the right direction. And that
direction is the right one for all in the loop.
What that entails, of course, is a letting-go. As Dore points out, there is
now glorification of fierce focus, with the usual willpower to go along with
that.
Recently, I did my daily one-card pull for myself before I started my day. I
had been caught up in the non-stop pain of a severe professional
disappointment. Meditation. Talking with my spiritual counselor. Praying.
I still couldn’t shake the pain.
Here is
the background. For 25 months I had "lobbied" Chairperson of top law
firm Paul Weiss Brad Karp to contract for my communications services. (I
operate several boutiques.)
In April
2022, Karp granted my wishes. I was over the moon since it was a retainer
arrangement. Wow. Now I was going to accomplish big things in communications
for Paul Weiss.
Let's
sum it up this way: The fit with middleman on the account Chief Marketing
Officer Luke Ferrandino –
there was none. Of course, Karp had to delegate that supervisory role. I
was a very small moving part in that powerhouse law firm, both for litigation
and transactional law.
As I
experienced the situation, there was no real work assigned by Ferrandino. Talk
about illusion. I resorted to blogging about the firm to simulate a work
product.
Since
there had been no contract outlining my duties, no metrics on how my
performance would be assessed, and no NDA setting boundaries on what I could
disclose or not disclose, there was only high ambiguity. Scared? You bet.
Within
two months I was in such a state of professional self-doubt. I pulled the
plug.
When I
drew The Chariot Card I had the gestalt: Big Law and Me – maybe not such a hot
fit.
I have
shut down my syndicated blog Law and More, which had been an influencer since
August 2006.
I am no
longer encouraging large law practices to consider me for assignments.
I invest
no cognitive energy into interpreting the fine points of the status of a legal
action. That is, the real ones. I do obsess about the nuances of the law
for the fictional as in “Where The
Crawdads Sing.”
As yet, I haven’t found a replacement for that income from legal
communications. Some would call me “lost.” I would agree with them. But I have
trust that I will align with purpose.
What coud be that purpose? It could be to channel my psychic gifts full-time to provide relief from suffering. That would be through reading of the Tarot for professionals who also
need to get good-and-lost.
The challenge for all of us searchers is to remain good-and-lost long enough to connect
with both the individual unconscious and the collective conscious of whatever constitutes energy.
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