How You Can Forgive Your Younger Self
Hardened with regret, lumbering with age and excess weight Helga Bahlmann arrives at a hotel to conduct on-film a reconciliation session.
Back in 1942, as the 2026 movie "Aryan Papers" depicts, she was a youthful enthusiast of the Nazi regime. That prompted her to participate in the Lebensborn, a breeding program for Aryan babies. During that time, she took it upon herself to murder Jews and others she found lacking the right views.
From the get-go in the reconciliation process, Helga has to confront the question: How can she forgive the younger so misguided, so cruel self. Initially she distances herself from that entity, referring to that self in the third person. Then she comes around to owning that monster was her.
"Aryan Papers" is currently available on free streaming platform Tubi. Just key in the title in the search bar.
With humans living longer more are "doing a Helga." They are forced to dredge up a self that is so incongruent with who they are now or who they assume they are now. The suffering can be profound. Examples range from parents who recognize the emotional destruction they heaped on the offspring to the wealthy shamed by what they felt they had to do to get ahead.
In the tarot that regret is symbolized by the Five of Cups.
That model is systematized in the Twelve Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous which are leveraged in a growing number of healing programs. That entails:
Taking an inventory of the wrongdoing
Sharing that with another human being
Making a list of those harmed
Becoming willing to make amends
Making the amends
And, doing daily soul-searching so that what has happened won't happen again.
After the war, Helga did reject that younger self. She went on to marry and mother three sons. They never learned about who she had been.
But obviously she wasn't free from her past.
Most religions and spiritual programs provide the promise of total self-forgiveness. In Roman Catholicism there is the sacrament of reconciliation, for instance. In the New Testament of the Bible Judas, who betrayed Jesus, is castigated for his inability to forgive himself. He commits suicide. How arrogant to reject the reality that to be human is to be deeply flawed. Embrace that, repent, move forward.
Path to earning a good
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Jane Genova, 3rd
Generation Psychic 203-468-8579, jangenova374@gmail.com

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